Living with Sleep Issues

Let me start by saying I’m such an onion! I have a wonderful combination and am about to share a piece of My World with you: RBD, Sleep Apnea, Hyper-Insomnia, Narcolepsy, Excessive Day Time Dreaming and can now add Depression to my seemingly growing list!

Thinking back I have to wonder what my life could’ve been like even as a child had I knew something other than somethings just wrong with me. Growing up: I heard things all the time (crashes, bangs, screams), seen things (people, objects move), scared (alot)! Very vivid dreams but figured that part was normal. As a teen: never seem to need sleep but would be so tired I couldn’t remember walking to school but boy I could remember waking up hiding from the people who was in my room during the night. Skipping to being an adult!..

I always heard babies crying, carry on normal conversations until I said something totally off the wall and people would think I wasn’t paying attention. Jump in the bed picking apples, blacked my ex’s eye, always had police at my house for noises even bought 3 large dogs (didn’t help).

I was actually diagnosed this year. I hide things like money, rearrange furnitures and pictures, if I don’t wear a bra to bed: I wake up naked outside. I take Clonazopam at night and 100mg Provigil when I wake up and about 12-1 pm just to make it thru the day. I have a C-Pap but I take it off to roam. I scream night and day, fall alseep or just dream with my eyes open during meetings or while driving. I realized constant mind stimulation works some but then I don’t sleep for 3-4 days but I still dream! I told my sleep specialist I’m becoming afraid to drive. He asked if I wrecked the car yet and I said not yet so he said just becareful. I also informed him I’m getting lost alot in familiar places and having a terrible time remembering anything. so now…

Stress is a huge factor. My prior supervisor allowed me to accommodate my disorders and it was becoming more managable. For the last 2-3 months, we have a new one who is Not approachable and I just come off a 2 week sick leave for high anxiety depression no sleep and nearly living in a dream state so I take Zoloft now. I am always bruised, had ear surgery cause I punched myself, broke my own glasses. I have 4 other roommates and I rent the basement so I won’t fall so easily since I fall alseep and have fallen down the stairs many times breaking bones. I’m not sure what I can do because some times I’m not sure whats real and not since I dream so much. I think people say or do things they swear they didn’t.

I need some suggestions.. Please.. Most days I’m struggling more and more than before…

Good luck to everyone…

Magical_Dreams***