Living with Narcolepsy

I’m 31. About 2years ago I quit personal training because I felt like a hypocrite. I have struggled to finish college. I am a go getter who thinks life is something you kick your ass into gear and take the bull by the horns…. SO, this diagnosis is embarrassing for me. I can’t finish workouts even! I was a trainer for nearly ten YEARS and I can’t finish an aerobics class. I always wondered why the HECK my muscles would stop “working” sort of during the class! I have night terrors… I wake up shouting nonsense or sometimes things that are true in life at the time. It’s like I’m not fully asleep OR awake. I remember going out of town with an ex and I shouted such embarassing things about going back without him. I just KNEW I was going to wake him up. My mate now is so encouraging.

The other thing is I short circuit so easily! Is that a symptom? Like I can’t control my emotions as well when I am tired.

More about being tired. I use to attribute everything to the hypoglycemia, but some of the time I was feeling bad, my blood sugar checked out just fine.

On a date once at a restaraunt, I started to zone out and I was so embarassed… I blamed it on blood sugar (I thought it might be) but I felt like I was falling asleep! I was so embarrassed I zoomed off in my car. Not too smart. I remember going home and getting the covers out and lying down. My ex thought I was just having some sort of emotional problem. The only emotional thing was embarrassment!

The thing I am currently struggling with is I will nap during the day and wake up around four, drink 2 cups of coffee (fast) and be wide awake. I’m so excited to go work out. By the time I get to the gym I AM EXHAUSTED already! I get there only an hour and a half later! UGH! Anyway this is probably unorganized but I just wrote my thoughts as quickly as I thought them. Does anyone else feel this way?